well that sucked! Mood: don't ask Now Playing: Sarah McLachlan Topic: Friends and Family
Ugh.
To make a long story short, I'm moving out tonight. Things weren't working out and I realized that the only reason that I was still there was that it was comfortable. It was a difficult decision, but one that needed to be made.
Unfortunately I was forced into this particular conversation while I was at work, so I'm not pleased at the venue. At any rate, it's over... honestly, I'm just relieved. Does that make me a bad person?
posted by a cautiously optimistic Redskins fan
at 4:26 PM EST
fumbling towards ecstasy Mood: lyrical Now Playing: Sarah McLachlan Topic: Introspection
As most of you know, I'm rather eclectic when it comes to musical taste........ one day I could be listening to Jay Z, the next Velvet Revolver, music from Les Miserables........ you get the picture. I'm listening to Sarah McLachlan and Tori Amos at the moment....... I love the title track off of Sarah McLachlan's fumbling towards ecstasy album.... she is such an incredible songwriter. The music and the lyrics are just beautiful. I suppose that I haven't listened to her in a little bit because her songs are always played at funerals of my friends. *sigh* Speaking of which - Jason, an autoCAD operator at work had one of his friends kill himself Sunday night. That sucks. It seems that this kind of thing always happens around the holidays, too...... sounds like a good research paper topic. I'm actually looking forward to getting back to classes, I like being busy. Guess that's it for now. There will be a surprising post (well, maybe not surprising for everyone) in the next week. Like I said, stay tuned... and here are the lyrics from the SM song I was talking about:
All the fear has left me now I'm not frightened anymore It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh it's my mouth that pushes out this breath and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love Companion to our demons they will dance, and we will play With chairs, candles, and cloth making darkness in the day It will be easy to look in or out upstream or down without a thought and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love Peace in the struggle to find peace comfort on the way to comfort and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love I won't fear love I won't fear love.
posted by a cautiously optimistic Redskins fan
at 9:17 AM EST
hmm..................... Mood: vegas lucky Now Playing: Junkies Topic: Weekend happenings
Sorry for my lack of posting, I haven't been home much... (that's the understatement of the century)
Here was my horroscope for yesterday:
The erratic emotions that you have been experiencing over the past couple of days should ease at this time, LAUREN. You will find that you are much more able do deal with things that come your way, and that you are more flexible and easygoing overall. Regardless of the unexpected twists and turns that pop up in the road in front of you, you have your pedal to the metal. You are strong and confident in your approach to everything. Do not doubt yourself for a second.
Yeah, that would just about fit perfectly. Major changes coming for 2005......... stay tuned.
posted by a cautiously optimistic Redskins fan
at 8:36 AM EST
If a Cowboys fan is pushed out of a moving vehicle at 60 mph... Mood: mischievious Now Playing: velvet revolver Topic: Rants
And is then run over by a truck, would that be considered murder? I mean, he could have just fallen out, right? Oh, gee... he wasn't wearing his seatbelt - oops! Never underestimate the power of stupid people in small groups. We have two Cowboys fans at work. Fan number one is in our fantasy league and talks a lot of smack (you can see previous entries about him, he's always doing something to get under my skin), fan number two sits near me upstairs, thinks he is God's gift to women, and also talks trash. I could say a lot of mean and hurtful things about fan number one, since I know some other things about him, but I won't. He only wants to piss me off because his own life is so shitty. Fan number two I'm not so sure of, although I think he has a major inferiority complex.
At any rate, Monday of this week following the hundredth time the Redskins have squandered a lead in the 4th quarter, #1 did his usual taunting. My blood boiled, but I didn't say anything. Then yesterday, while I was doing phones, #1 had given me something to type as #2 walks into the lobby and says, "How `bout them Redskins?" It took so much self control to not start screaming obscenities at him. They've been bottling up for the past several years as the Skins continue to lose.
Kurtis tells me that I take football too seriously. That's probably true, but what is more accurate is that I just take things personally. By attacking my favorite team, you're essentially attacking me, and I'm quite easily provoked by certain people. Okay, I'm easily provoked by everyone. I'm not quite sure how to get over it, either... I think that it's just in my nature to be overly emotional. I was the girl in elementary school who would cry if I got a question wrong when the teacher called on me or asked me to stop doing something. I'm not saying that I would be boo-hooing hysterically or anything, because I was too embarrassed to do something like that... instead I would put my head in my hands and wipe the tears away so that my classmates wouldn't see. Yep, I've always been like that. I still get like that at times... I hate being so sensitive, it makes me feel ridiculous. I find myself tearing up while watching cartoons, listening to the music from Les Miserables... hell, I'm tearing up now just THINKING about that crap! What is wrong with me?
Just FYI, I wrote part of this post yesterday, I'm not as pissed off at those idiotic bastards today. Those Cowboy-loving-no-good-stinky-feet-sushi-eating corrupted assholes!!!
Everyone have a lovely weekend and safe & fun NYE, hopefully I will have an opportunity to post at some point. :-)
posted by a cautiously optimistic Redskins fan
at 2:15 PM EST
This day ranks around 9.5 out of 10 on the weird-shit-o-meter Mood: accident prone Now Playing: breaking benjamin Topic: Weird shit
I'll be honest; I wasn't in the greatest mood when I came in to work anyway. I'm not entirely sure when you could say my day started... perhaps at 5 a.m. when I opened my eyes and thought that it was snowing outside? I don't know if it really was snowing, but I swore that it was, and one of the times Kurtis got up, I told him that it was snowing, too. Maybe I was dreaming that it was snowing. If anyone else lives in the 21122 zip code and was up at 5 a.m., please tell me that I'm not crazy. At any rate, there were ice crystals on my car that looked like frozen snowflakes, so I still think that it must have snowed last night. The strange part of it though is that it looked like my windshield wipers had been used, because there was a streak across the windshield as if they'd been turned on and then the moisture had frozen. That's the best way that I can describe it. Maybe I was still asleep when I started my car? Who knows?
So I get to work and there are about 8 cars in the parking lot... fewer than yesterday, but that's not really all that weird. Turn on my computer and Christmas lights... the lights in my area were still off, and they were glowing rather nicely, so I decided to leave the lights off and just enjoy my pretty colored lights. An hour or so later, one of our wonderful Dallas Cowboys fans (who also thinks that he's God's gift to women) comes over and turns on my lights! I was quite enjoying my morning with the lights off! There is a plotter behind me where he gets his drawings, but there was plenty of surrounding light for him to be able to see which drawings were his when they came out of the plotter. I'm sure that he did it just to irritate me. Fortunately he didn't say anything nasty about the game, because I might have gotten a tad homicidal.
Kurtis emails me at around 10:30 saying that Kari had called The Body Garden (the spa that he got me, Kari & Brenda gift certificates to) was giving Kari the runaround about getting an appointment and he was thinking of just asking for his money back (he spent a nice chunk of change there and had had a bad experience with them to begin with) and getting GC's from somewhere else. I emailed him saying that Emilio Vincenzo (sp?) escape was comparable (if not cheaper) in price to The Body Garden and maybe they should contact them to see if they had anything open. He calls back saying that they don't have much open, etc... at any rate, the whole thing was turning into a fiasco and at this point I'm just hoping that Kari gets to go to the spa before they have to go back to Ohio. To further complicate matters, their car is acting up and they took it into the shop this morning.
So all of that is mostly run-of-the-mill stuff, I know. At around noon, Kurtis calls me (while I'm on phones) and asks what I'm doing for lunch. I responded that I had no plans... and he said that our friend Nick (who lives in WV now) was going to be in the area and wanted to have lunch with us. He also says that Nick is driving his tractor-trailer and the only place he can think to park it is in the Harms parking lot. Okay, whatever - there aren't that many people here today. This is all fine and good, and I agree to lunch. Shortly thereafter, one of our inspectors comes in with his arm all bandaged up, and blood seeping through the top of the bandage... whatever it was, it looked pretty bad. I made some comment about it looking bad and he tells me that I should have seen it before - this is how it looks *after* it's been all cleaned up & taken care of! So I didn't ask how it happened, figuring that he would be asked enough times and I would eventually find out anyway. Shortly thereafter, I get a phone call from the Learning Years (remember, I'm at the front desk) which is the day care center in our little "Harms Square" area. "Hi, this is Stacey over at Learning Years... is Dan around? There's a weird-looking guy out here who parked his tractor-trailer in front of our building. My boss asked me to go out there and ask him why he's here, but I'm kind of afraid to do it. I'm a little freaked out, do you think you could send him over? The guy is out of the truck and is under it doing something that I can't quite see." Oh boy. Now am I going to admit that I actually know who this person is??? Of course. At least, kind of. "OH. I think that's Nick, an ex-employee... he's supposed to be meeting one of my co-workers for lunch and he must have just parked his truck there. He's harmless, but a bit eccentric. You can just walk out there and ask him to move it, he's not going to hurt you!" "It's just that you know, we're a day care center, he can't just park out here!" "I'm sorry, but Dan's at lunch, we don't really have anyone that can walk out there and tell him to move." I finally got her off the phone, feeling slightly guilty... at the end I really thought that she would just go out there and ask Nick to move his trailer. Right after I hang up the phone with her, a black Dodge Durango with dark tinted windows and DC tags pulls up in front of the building. Two guys get out, one in an officer's uniform and another in a semi-officer looking uniform. At any rate, he didn't look like a civilian. The inspector with the bandaged arm is outside talking to them, and they all walk in together. I jokingly said, "I didn't do it." They laughed and then walked into the conference room. I'm thinking "What the hell???" Two minutes later, Kurtis walks in and tells me that Nick has disconnected his trailer and wants the three of us to ride to lunch in the cab of his truck?!!? I proceed to tell him what the woman from TLY told me and that they don't want him to park there. Then I told Kurt there was no way in hell that I was going to ride to lunch in that thing. He said, "Fine, you just meet us at Garry's Grill." At that point I was thinking it would probably be better if I didn't go at all after that fiasco! *sigh* I decide that I should go anyway, how much weirder can it get, right? As I'm about to leave, the company gossip woman is hovering around the front desk and says "Did you hear what happened to so-and-so?" I said that I knew he'd injured his hand somehow, but I didn't know why the cops were there, etc. She told me that he had been at an inspection site somewhere and had been bitten by a secret service officer's dog! So the policeman that I saw was actually a secret service agent!! How weird is that??
At any rate, I get in my car and am about to go to lunch. I pull up to Ritchie Highway and am just about to pull out since there is a break in traffic... then I see an asshole in a minivan about 20 feet away going about 30 mph in reverse up the shoulder - headed straight for me, of course! Scared the shit out of me!! Fortunately I have cat-like reflexes and slammed Roxie into reverse before the bastard plowed into me. Oh, I was PISSED. So I threw up my hands, resisting to give him the "You're #1" sign and instead opting for the "What the hell are you doing???!" gesture. He responded by waving!!!! Oh, I was not happy. The funny thing about this (if there is anything funny) is that the exact thing happened to another guy at work last year... or maybe it was even this summer. Someone ran into him backing up Ritchie Highway and took off the front bumper of his car. We're in a really horrible location for accidents, I swear.
I get to Severna Park without any further incidents, but then when I'm getting ready to pull into the parking space, this #%)()*@#_)(* pulls FORWARD into it, so I almost run into her! Or should I say that she almost ran into me??? Ugh. Not happy.
So that's been my day! I haven't heard from my friend Chris yet... I'm hoping that I'll be able to see him while he's home for Xmas. If you remember, Kurt & I ran into him at the Rainforest caf? a few months ago while he was home for a friend's wedding. Well, I have stuff to do, so I guess that I'd better do it. Hope that everyone else had a far less interesting day than me!
posted by a cautiously optimistic Redskins fan
at 4:36 PM EST
somebody shoot me Mood: down Topic: Football
We always find a way to lose, don't we? Other teams find ways to win, we find ways to lose. And the asshole Cowboy fan at work is back at it again. I did have one victory yesterday - I took first place in our Fantasy League - won the super bowl. But I could care less. Here's the lovely message that I found on the message board:
Great Job Pummelers!! Coach Grande needs to give Coach Gibbs a few pointers!
What a dick.
Just wait until next year when the Skins get their shit together.
My post back: Humility by: Puta's Pummelers (love_shoe) Dec 27 6:04am Arrogance suits you well, Bryan. You may have won the battle, but not the war.
If the Skins had won, I wouldn't have gloated. Inwardly, yes. But I wouldn't be quite as smug and idiotic as a Cowboys fan. Cowboys fans are a special breed. Speaking of which, here's an old joke:
A first grade teacher explains to her class that she is a Cowboys fan. She asks her students to raise their hands if they were Cowboys fans too.
Not really sure what a Cowboy fan was, but wanting to be just like their beloved teacher, their hands exploded into the air.
There was however, one exception. A little girl named Susie did not go along with the crowd. The teacher asked her why she decided to be different.
"Cause I'm not a Cowboys fan."
"Then what are you," asked the teacher.
"I'm a proud Redskins fan," boasts the little girl.
A little perturbed now, her teacher asks why she is a Redskins fan.
"Well, my Mom and Dad are Redskins fans, and so I am a Redskins fan too."
A little more aggravated the teacher exclaims, "That's no reason. What if your Mom was a moron, and your Dad was a moron? What would you be then?"
Susie paused and smiled, "Then I guess I'd be a Cowboys fan!"
posted by a cautiously optimistic Redskins fan
at 9:18 AM EST
all I want for Christmas Mood: rushed Topic: Football
Is a win against the Cowboys. That's all I want, really.
Col Mustard has been making some incredible posts lately, so make sure that you check him out. My links are on the left side of the page. One of the posts that he made had a link to a blog from a Mosul hospital doc... I'll put it up later.
Hope that everyone had a safe & happy Christmas. I love you all!
posted by a cautiously optimistic Redskins fan
at 12:59 PM EST
don't ask
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