feeling mushy
Mood:  amorous
Topic: Friends and Family
I don't know if love is in the air or I just miss Brian because I don't see him as much these days, but every time I see him I am just so happy that he's in my life. Instead of our usual Wednesday night at Perry's, he came over and watched a movie and it was just so nice to see him. Every time I hear certain songs, I just think about him and think about our future together. I am so blessed to have him in my life... he makes me smile every day. There are definitely times that I don't agree with everything he does or times that I wish we could spend more time alone together, but when I get those moments alone with him it's like everything else just goes away and we're in our own little world. I like that. They say that that first stage of love can be like that, but it wears off between 3 months (sometimes earlier) and one year. Well, it doesn't seem like it's fading for me... it seems that each day just gets better. It's a feeling that I've truly never had before.

Most relationships that I've been in have been intense at first and seem to drop off after 5 or 6 months. This one is just different. I don't know if it's because this has been such a traumatic year and I feel like those experiences have brought us closer together or what... or maybe I just never knew what love was supposed to be. I haven't lost myself in this relationship and I've kept my friendships going... I've taken an interest in some of his hobbies and activities, his job... but I haven't let it completely consume me. I've become friends with the people in his group, but I also made sure that I leave time for my own. Of course weekends are a little tricky now, since that is really my only chance to see him, I've had to try to make plans with my friends around his schedule, but I think that's understandable. I'm going to Orlando in two weeks with my girlfriends... I highly doubt that I could have done that before without feeling guilty. Of course, I'll miss him the whole time I'm gone, but I won't be obsessing about it.

*sigh*

Here I am, up too late again.

One of these days I'm going to get to bed on time, I swear.

That's it for now, though.......... sweet dreams, dear readers.